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I've been working with my team to produce the company's logo. Although a lot of online stores only use fonts as their logo, I want something meaningful. I know that it will not mean much to a lot of people, but the logo is the core of the beginning of this company.

We looked into the idea of adding a butterfly to the logo.



The Meaning Of The Butterfly...

The meaning of the butterfly tattoo lies in how people interpret it. While in a few cultures some butterflies are regarded as bringers of bad news, in most others it symbolizes change and new life. The former must be based on the fact that caterpillars die to bring life to the butterfly. Some cultures focus on the death of the caterpillar as bad while others focus on the rebirth of the caterpillar through the butterfly. Many have adopted or prefer the latter significance of the butterfly hence the popularity of the butterfly tattoo.

Many believe that the butterfly signifies change and a new beginning...





I just came back from watching a The Blind Side. While we stand and witness this country's debate over health care, among very many other important issues that the US is facing, I felt so very relieved by the fact that such kind hearted like the Tuohys exist...so many things are happening during every second that we blink our eyes...yet some of us are so oblivious as to what life is about...or we simply choose to be ignorant.

After getting home, I decided that I'd read one blog tonight. I am so glad that I picked Ladivasosa's...

IT HAS BEEN REPORTED THAT DAUL COMMITTED SUICIDE IN PARIS. I HAVE BEEN READING HER BLOG FOR SOME TIME AND I HAVE READ THE PAIN, THE SADNESS AND THE LONELINESS. I HAVE ALSO READ HER DEEP SENSITIVITY TOWARDS LIFE AND HER INTELLIGENCE IN UNDERSTANDING HOW JUST BECAUSE SO MANY PEOPLE HAVE BECOME VICTIMS AND FALLEN INTO THE SAME TRAP DOES NOT MEAN THAT THE PLAN MAKES SENSE.

I UNDERSTAND IN A HUMANITARIAN SENSE THAT SOCIETY, ESPECIALLY MODERN SOCIETY HAS SUCCESSFULLY CREATED A SYSTEM WHERE WE ARE DOOMED TO FAIL SPIRITUALLY. I AM ASKING YOU TO READ BETWEEN THE LINES HERE. MANY OF YOU ARE CURRENTLY IN THE SYSTEM IN BLISSFUL IGNORANCE, I HAVE BEEN THERE MYSELF. AND MAYBE SOME OF YOU BELONG IN THE SYSTEM BECAUSE YOU ARE MOST PRODUCTIVE THAT WAY. NOT EVERYONE IS BORN TO BE AN INDIVIDUALIST AND THAT'S FINE.

BUT THERE ARE A FEW PEOPLE WHO WERE BORN TO BE INDIVIDUALISTS. DAUL KIM WAS ONE OF THEM. HER BEAUTY MADE HER PART OF A GROUP, A VERY LARGE GROUP AND I'M NOT JUST TALKING ABOUT MODELS BUT PHYSICALLY BEAUTIFUL PEOPLE IN GENERAL. IT WAS THROUGH HER EXPRESSION OF HER RICH BUT VERY SAD INNER LIFE THAT SEPARATED HERSELF FROM THE REST OF THE DRONES. YEAH I SAID IT, DRONES. DAUL WAS THRUST INTO THE WORLD THAT WAS CREATED TO DRIVE HER TO SPIRITUAL MADNESS. MAD-NESS IS NOT CRAZY, IT'S MAD, ANGRY AT THE CIRCUMSTANCES AND MOST IMPORTANTLY, ANGRY AT THEMSELVES FOR PARTICIPATING.

WHEN IS HUMANITY GONNA GET SENSITIVE ENOUGH TO RECOGNIZE THESE SOULS AND SHOW RESPECT FOR THEM BY LETTING THEM SHINE THEIR LIGHT INSTEAD OF MANIPULATING THEM INTO A SYSTEM THAT TAKES SO MUCH WITH LITTLE RETURN? I'M NOT TALKING ABOUT THE MODELING OR FASHION WORLD SPECIFICALLY, BUT THE WORLD IN GENERAL! THIS FUCKED UP SYSTEM IS WHAT'S RUNNIN THIS WORLD RIGHT NOW AND LOOK WHERE WE'RE AT! ARE YOU GUYS HAPPY ABOUT THE STATE OF THE WORLD RIGHT NOW? THIS AIN'T NO "KUMBAYA" SHIT, THIS IS "WAKE THE FUCK UP" SHIT. WRESTLE YOURSELVES AWAY FROM YOUR DISTRACTIONS OF SHOPPING, STATUS, GLORY, AND DREAMS OF FAME AND FORTUNE TO THINK ABOUT THIS.

I WAS THINKING ABOUT THE DIRECTION THAT THIS BLOG WAS GOING TO AND AT FIRST I WANTED TO KEEP IT STRAIGHT FASHION AND ART RELATED WITH SOME PERSONAL THOUGHTS BUT NOTHING TOO DEEP. I WANT TO LET YOU KNOW WHY I'M SO UPSET OVER THIS.

ABOUT A MONTH AGO, I IGNITED AN ARGUMENT WITH ONE OF MY "FAMILY" MEMBERS. UP TO THAT POINT, I WAS HAVING SOME DEEP INNER CONFLICT ABOUT TRUTH AND LIVING IN TRUTH. I FELT LIKE I WAS INVOLVED IN SOME REALLY PHONY SHIT WITH THESE "FAMILY" MEMBERS AND IT WAS REALLY BOTHERING ME. I DIDN'T HAVE THE BEST CHILDHOOD, IN FACT IT WAS FUCKED UP. AS A CHILD, I SPOKE UP FOR MYSELF AND CALLED A SPADE A SPADE WHENEVER I FELT IT WAS JUSTIFIED. I WAS INSULTED AND RIDICULED BECAUSE OF IT. FAST FORWARD TO THE MOMENT OF MY ARGUMENT WHERE THE "FAMILY" MEMBER FELT LIKE SHE COULD ASK ME FOR HELP. I AM MORE THAN WILLING TO HELP BECAUSE I HAVE BEEN ON THE SIDE OF RECEVING ABSOLUTELY NO HELP FOR THE MAJORITY OF MY LIFE. I WAS ALWAYS TOLD THAT IT WAS MY PROBLEM AND IF I GOT MYSELF INTO IT, I CAN FIGURE OUT HOW TO GET OUT OF IT. FINE, SO BE IT. IT MAY HAVE NOT BEEN LIKE THAT FOR MOST OF YOU, BUT IT WAS LIKE THAT FOR ME. IT'S JUST THE TRUTH HERE, NO NEED FOR PITY OR SORROW. FOR SOME REASON, THAT REQUEST FOR HELP INSULTED ME AND I SPOKE UP ABOUT IT AND THE REASONS WHY. THE FOLLOWING RESPONSES WHERE NOT OF OWNERSHIP OF ONE'S ACTIONS AND POSSIBLY AN INVITATION FOR SOME UNDERSTANDING BUT OF NOTHING BUT JUDGMENT AND RIDICULE. SO I SHOT BACK DEFENDING MYSELF AND OWNING UP TO THE JUDGMENTS. I ALSO JUDGED RIGHT BACK. OF COURSE OTHER MEMBERS STEPPED IN AND CALLED ME A HYPOCRITE AND TOLD ME THAT I CAN GET MEDICAL HELP FOR THIS, ESSENTIALLY REPEATING THE SAME BEHAVIOUR. THAT MOMENT MADE ME REALIZE THAT SOMETIMES, YOU HAVE TO TALK TO PEOPLE NOT IN YOUR OWN LANGUAGE, BUT IN A LANGUAGE THAT THOSE PEOPLE UNDERSTAND. AFTER DEFENDING MYSELF AND OWNING UP TO MY CHOICES AND ACTIONS IN LIFE, ONLY TO FOLLOW WITH MORE JUDGMENT AND RIDICULE, I MADE THE CHOICE TO SWITCH FROM MY LANGUAGE, TO THE LANGUAGE OF THESE "FAMILY" MEMBERS--JUDGEMENT. WHETHER THEY GOT THE POINT OR NOT DIDN'T MATTER, I JUST WANTED TO GET RID OF THE PHONINESS.

UNFORTUNATELY, DAUL KIM DID THE SAME THING WITH PERMANENT CONSEQUENCES.

Over and over I have been thinking about what will happen to this blog once the store launches. Should I keep it? Should it be more store driven? Should I be making personal posts or posts about things that are happening in-store...sales, new stock, etc...

We'll all find out next year...